Friday, December 19, 2008

The John Galt Line





Dagny Taggart is my hero.  She is a main character in Ayn Rand's book, Atlas Shrugged.  This is my favorite book of all time.  Seriously, if you haven't read it...I'll buy you a copy.

Dagny is just this powerhouse of a individual.  She is strong, assertive, and competent.  In the novel she goes up against what would seem like an impossible task.

The whole nation is falling apart and she has to build a railroad in 9 months to save Colorado.  Colorado is pretty much the only thing keeping the blood pumping to what is the rest of the United States.  Her brother is an idiot.  Oh, and the President of Taggart Transcontinental, the railroad.  Dagny is Vice President of Operations....but she pretty much runs the show.

Anyways, I feel I am doing a horrible job of setting this whole thing up.  My point is, almost every single thing that could go wrong does.  Companies that manufacture parts for her engines and rail line go out of business, or their owners suddenly decide to retire.  Her brother has friends in Washington with agenda's who are all out to get something for nothing.  The rest of her entire line, her entire empire, depends on the John Galt Line.

Guess what?  She dies.  I'm just kidding, she finishes the freaking railroad.  I tell you what.  The whole description of her riding the first run of that line is amazing...the description of the feeling that she has.  It is more than pride.  It is almost like a confirmation of her abilities that she new she had all along, that she thought the whole world would strive to have.  Instead they choose to be moochers and looters.  

Have you ever had to build your own John Galt Line?  Have you came upon a task or goal or dream that just seemed so impossible?  Like it was as if all that you needed were some nails, but there were no hardware stores,  and all the nails in homes and other structures had already been taken.  The plants who produce the nails have shut down because the resources needed to make the nails are extinct.  

I've heard that when you are out of your comfort zone, worried, or uneasy about a task, goal, or endeavor, that is when the most learning and growth can take place.  I've been thinking all day about how this new project I am taking on is like my John Galt Line and oh, how easy it would be to just curl up and go back to sleep or ya know, back to my day job.  

Sometimes we are stretched.  We are pushed to do something great.  To be better.  To learn and grow to be closer to the amazingly powerful individual that we have potential to be.

How many people can look at their life and say, "I grew.  I became better.  I refused to just sit around and stagnate."  

I implore you, build your railroad.  Do whatever it takes.   Do not be afraid and cower.  Live your life.  Face challenges head on.  

And when all is said and done,

Let a smile out and show your teeth, cause you know you lived it well.

-Saves The Day

Saturday, December 13, 2008

$45 Dollars Up and We're Out

So.  I am not a huge gambler.  I would consider myself a rookie to say the least.  The last time I gambled I won seven dollars and took off.  I figured get out while your ahead, right?  

Tonight I was determined at my husbands work Christmas party to really get the game down.  To really sink my teeth in and do some damage.  Blackjack..here I come.

I started with $40.  Yes, yes, I know...I'm crazy.

It actually went really well.  I had a whole table of people I knew teaching me the ropes.  Eventually I was hitting, staying, doubling down and....winning!  I got up to about $105 bucks...decided to play two more games despite my husband's plee for us to leave while I was ahead.  I ended up leaving with $85 big ones...a $45 dollar gain.

Boy was I on an adrenaline rush!  I was cheering..high-fiving...smiling at people I didn't even know.  I....was....awesome.  

On the drive home as my adrenaline high was coming down though it was a lot of fun, and though I came out ahead, that "rush" feeling was short-lived. 

I started feeling like I hadn't really won at all, but I couldn't quite figure out why.  Maybe it was because I didn't really earn the money, or create something that would continue to give me that "win" feeling.  Then I realized that I have had that adrenaline rush feeling over the last week and it has been constant.

I think when you realize that you are doing something you truly enjoy, it becomes pretty powerful.  

Over the last several months I just haven't felt like myself.  Have you ever just felt like you were going against the grain, but that is just the way it is?  Things I used to enjoy like learning about investing or real estate, I just didn't care for anymore.  I was burnt out.  I felt hopeless and I felt that 9-5 job was my future.  Recently I've snapped out of it and I'm so grateful for some friends who helped.

It is amazing how a conversation with someone can turn the light back on and really get the wheels turning again.

I feel like me again and I am so excited.

So how do we remember who we are even in times of discouragement?  How do we hang on to those things we love and push through no matter what kind of obstacles stand in the way?  How do we hang on to that adrenaline drive we feel when we are being ourselves and doing what we have a passion to do?  

I think one way is to keep those who lift us up and truly know us close to us.  By not being afraid to say "Hey, I really need a boost, will you help me?"  By being honest enough with ourselves to realize that maybe some people drain our energy instead of give us a boost and we should probably try to be around those who do the latter.

This being my first blog I will end with two challenges.  First, find that something that makes you stay up all night and get up early just because you are so excited to create or learn or experience.  

Second, don't be scared to double-down.